I will never do that!

As we're dreaming of becoming mothers, we always say "I'll never do that!!" And insert your favorite phrase here, such as: Send a bottle to bed with baby, raise your voice, allow a meltdown at the store, ect. You know what I'm talking about. And then motherhood starts... from there you are overwhelmed with diaper changes, feedings, do this, don't do that, and the lack of sleep. Suddenly you find yourself doing the things you SWORE you'd never do, and maybe if your lucky you stick to not doing the one particular thing that you swore off the most. (I did stick to mine! I have never sent a bottle to bed with my babies!) But for the most part, you..just..give..in..

I've found myself giving in at the grocery store, even as of today! Kendlee wanted squeeze cheese. We have cheez whiz at home but apparently its just not the same since it doesn't come out of a can! I realize that part of the fun is the squeezing but I could have simulated such a thing with a piping bag and a piping tip! Oh well. I've given into "Just one more story.." And "just one more game.." And "just one more ice cream scoop!" and I've also given into the extra snuggle time I get when Slade is not sleeping well, or just plain out wants to be held. Is it right? Is it wrong? IT really doesn't matter to me, because this is MY life and things change from day to day.

I've become comfortable as a mom. Realizing that this is what I've always meant to do has really fulfilled my life! I'm satisfied and yet I'm yearning for more! (Which is good since you all know how little my kids are!)  Don't get me wrong, I have my days where I'm just fed up and could really use a bath, massage, chocolate and a strong drink, all at once! ;) But I really do enjoy being a mommy. Its exciting and entertaining.. even delightful, most of the time! ;)

As I sit here typing this I hear giggles of joy and excitement. I hear that a small fort of blankets and pillows is being made. I hear "C'mon Bud Bud!! Over here Bud Bud!" And as I peek over I see Slade walking over to Kendlee's fort. My eyes do feel with tears, how fast these times go and how much I do cherish them. I am proud of my two little "people" (I put people in quotes because they are no longer babies!) and who they are becoming. I am proud to say that these two people are my masterpieces! My very best creations!

Now wrapping up this post (which seems to have no particular subject) I have heard a whirlwind of emotions escape from the living room. Happiness, anger, the feeling of being squished by a hug, curiousity.. and once again, it all amazes me. Mostly I'm amazed at just how much I really do LOVE being a mother!